Life's Changing

........ I don't know exactly how I can describe my feelings that I feel now. It's not lonely but it's longing on something which I myself cannot identify it. Could this caused by me listening to a choir's singing performances? I like choir and to hear them sing a song with different cords using different voices make me awe. It's like Gregorian style. Simple yet meaningful and beautiful.


So I decided to change my course. I don't know yet what kind of course that I would like to study. It took me freaking 5 years to realised that I don't belong to Science related field. I've wasted my5 precious years, chasing something that I actually don't like to do.

Anderson asked me today: tell me what you actually want to do.

My answer: I don't know. 

I must say that he finally accepted my leave. If he could he would eat me alive last week when I told him that I would not continue my pharmacy. But this week seemed different, and he talked to me with calm manner and I can feel as if today's conversation would be the last time we talk and facing each other for longer time. He said many things that I could not even believe it myself. I knew new things a lot from him, and this phrase stuck in my mind: it's sucks but you'll love it. 

 Time goes really fast. I have to deal with the Uni as I am currently waiting for my results to come out. Whatever happened in the future, I hope I can find things that I really love to do and I will get one and the most suitable course for me to study.  

Dilemma

I read this poem before once back when I was just a Junior High School student. I didn't remember the title of that poem anymore but it was about path route of your life that you choose. It uses roads as the metaphor of life. The traveler that was travelling stand in between of two routes, one with the common route that people always travel with and the other one was not favoured by people to walk by.

The traveler stood there, thinking which route he has to take and wondering what would he faced if he choose one of these two routes. I myself is in that kind of situation. I am dilemma. I should be grateful because I am in this stream, a pharmacy stream, which people would say a very good job and a bright future. But on the other hand, I'm getting loose my interest in this field.

So what will happen if I pick a wrong course and later on I will regret it? and what if it could be the other way round? I haven't have any idea which course should I take and how my life will be in the future. I'm not worry about graduate in late age or being ashamed if I am no longer a pharmacy student. What I'm worry most is that what should I do in my life later?

My best friend, also known as my mother, this time, she is fully supports me of changing my course if I think I can't cope it anymore. Unlike last year, she cried and she begged me to not leave this course, my dad also said the same thing. But what made me burden lifted up was when we're on phone 2/3 days ago, she finally gave me green light and said to me: let's don't be greedy and don't force yourself. I want you to have a peaceful and enjoy your study, not torturing you and make you sad.

That is my Mother. I am blessed to have her.


so the poem that I said early, that's how I am now. I don't know how and where life leads me but I think somehow I can manage it. By of course, with the support from my family and friends and of course with God's Will. :)

The Bully

I think I was a bully girl. I ain't the victim, instead I am (was) a bully. I bullied people for the person's sake. lol




I don't bully my girl friends, I bullied my guy friends! At first I didn't give a damn about that but while reminiscing back my journey since my childhood, I am in fact, a cruel person, bullying others for my personal's sake... so does for his sake!. this was what happened in the past:.............

" .... Once upon a time, there was a 10 year old girl, with a good brain but having a tough time since she has eye sights problem. Since she was the tallest in her classroom so therefore she had to sat far behind the class. She didn't even bother to informed the homeroom teacher what her problem was. Since each row has two link tables, so this unlucky boy unfortunately sat beside her, without having known what would happened to him later. 


During the first period of class, she would stayed calm and composure and once in a while she would asked the boy what did the teacher wrote in the blackboard. The boy didn't suspect that time and just gave cooperation with whatever she asked. This has continued for months.


As days passed, the girl was no longer a ladylike, she has become a monster literally. She has no longer had the fear or shyness towards her partner, not to mentioned that her eye sights were getting worse. The boy got mad but still he felt pity for her and endured her temper while assist her in everything during school term. 


This boy was well known for his disaster of handwriting.  Since he has had the worst handwriting ever, each and every time when he finished copied down the notes from the board, the girl would copied from him. So if he copied the wrong thing, so did the girl. To ensure that everything was in perfect conditions, hence the girl would make sure that the boy would write down neatly, correctly and in proper handwriting so that no mistakes could no longer occurred. Ever since he was with this girl his handwriting was getting improved and eventually being praised by the teachers . Thus, although this girl kept on complaining and asked him again and again what did he wrote on his notes never once he complaint.... The End.."


P/S: I was literally like a mom for him. I nagged too much. LOLLLLL!
I miss him, my servant guy! 

Daily Activities

I joined and signed up as a volunteer since yesterday. My first day was totally fine. The manager, Judith, said that for first timers, she would usually started at up floor but unfortunately that day, down floor people short of people instead. Later than, she assigned me to down floor.

I joined the British Heart Foundation (BHF) charity shop by the way, so the upper floor would be the ones that dealing with labeling, sort out stuffs and so on meanwhile, the lower floor would be what people called as high street fashion shop. I am actually enjoy working down floor instead upper floor. 

My work shift would be on every Wednesdays and Thursdays  1300-1700. I could sense that my communication/ interpersonal skills are certainly improving. I met new people these two days I worked. It's absolutely stress free. 

Now as for today, while I was upstairs tagged the labels, Beverly came all of sudden and without even knowing who am I ( we haven't even properly introduced ourselves yet that time), the said to me: I'VE BEEN DUMPED. I'm stunned. 

I didn't know how to react to her statement, so instead of pour more oils onto the fire, with a great care and caution, I asked her for how long she has been into relationship with this guy. She told me and then, she would continued how and what he had said to her before she eventually being dumped.

Later afterwards, John and Adam joined me and the three of us worked together in that room. I thought by mastering Tom's accent (Tom's accent for me until now, was the mild and fast accent) , I would surely survive and oh boy, I was wrong. Their accents are really thick ( I mean it, really, really thick). There were few times I have asked them to repeat. I think I have to work out that one. 

Despite the way they talk, they are really good boys and Adam especially would do all the talks and he is very entertaining! John would be as the back up and he would replied Adam most of the time. I would join their conversations but mostly I prefer to be a listener instead and laughed whatever jokes they made off. 

I met Shakira and I met.... Yammie (?) I don't know much about Yammie. She is an acquaintance of mine though. I actually noticed that some black people have a very unique name, names that I never thought of it before. I met few of them and I would say, I'm impress. Black men have a normal, decent names but not women. I met this woman at primary care recruitment and at first I thought she was joking when I asked her name. 

She told me that her name is BLESSING. I met some other woman at different time and her name is HOPE. well, I guess Hope is a normal name but Blessing? See that point? I'm impress. for me that is just a word but for them, they make it into their name. 

Oh well. People's choice though. I like her name by the way. :)

JOB

I live in a luxury live, not to say I'm a rich bitch, I am NOT rich at all. It's just a say that I live in a peaceful world of my own, without any worries of looking for a job.

HUNTING JOB IS SERIOUSLY NO JOKE.

And what hurts me most is that I need to get two other referees that is one at University and the other one is at my previous university college. It's so freaking crazy and I am worried about how the referees would respond the email that they would receive from the hr of primary care people.

I am currently applying for primary care job. which I have ZERO experience in that area, since so far I have only handle medications/drugs. so basically since I have no experience at all, I need referees from the current Uni and as well as the previous one. SIGH...

Since it's freaking holidays, I have nothing to do, so all I want for now is to get something to do so that I won't get bored. My craziness reached it's peak when I NEARLY apply for Domestic Cleaner. It's not bad I would say since it's nearby to my place but when I told Mum about it, the next thing I heard from her was her cry. She cried when I said I wanted to apply that job (which I nearly did, one more click and typed in few sentences on that and boom, it's done).

she said to me: Back here we used to hired maids, but now, you want to work as a maid?

It's not kind of racism or whatever, this is simply coming from my Mum because that's the fact: we had maids before. Since all of us are growing up now, so therefore we're no longer needed maids. By the ways, our maids were all lived in with us.

obviously that would not happen here, live in maid. LOL.

And yes, I am still upset about job hunting things. I am not happy with it at all.

Pharmacy Field

I am a pharmacy student.

One skeptical that often being mislead about pharmacy is that: we ONLY sell medications. Sad but it's a true story. That's how people seeing this field.

Unlike any other country, Malaysian people tends to not appreciate this job. Which they always have this stupid mind set saying doctor's job is much better and it's much worth. While the rest of the medical fields are not worthy at all. Which is extremely hurtful and hateful things to hear.

As I am (still) talking to my long lost ex classmate when we were in secondary school, each minutes gone worse. He still compares physician field with pharmacy field. And my blood is boiling. So to ensure that I don't appear as monster to him, I purposely and slowly changing the subject. Don't get me wrong, I did explain to him in nicest way I could that how, in a very simple yet short way of backing up pharmacy and other medical fields, we as a medical field person collaborates toward one another to make things smooth and eventually effective.

Apart from medical field people, I think almost 70% of citizens would not appreciate our efforts. I used to have had this acquaintance (long story) and he was a first year medical student in Kursk. I have no idea how could he be so stupid and arrogant and praised worship his field. This bastard in conclusion, act so almighty and it was obvious that he looked down at me because I am in pharmacy field.

Seeing how arrogant that bastard could be, it's totally waste to explain to him ways of how our field could work. I tried but this is all he said: apart from dispensing medications, what could you guys actually do? I mean I understand you have to work with patients but how?

I explained to him in the simplest form, state that apart from dispensing, we actually do extemporaneous preparations ( mind this, our hospital is in rural area and we are not fully develop country so we have to make our own medications), advise doctors on medications, check if there's drug-drug interactions, etc.. I'm talking about hospital wise, not others. Besides, my field is not only limited to hospital but also to others such as pharmaceuticals industrial, clinical research, teaching field blaa blaa you named it.

The arrogant and bliss coming from ungrateful human makes me sick. Physicians could not work well without the rest of medical team, so does pharmacy, nurse, mrt, etc! So therefore, don't judge my field of choice because without my field, you guys won't even have medicines to begin with!

Taken from Google image OBVIOUSLY

Another Sleepless Night

Sigh.....

It's freaking 0359am and here I am, stare stupidly in front of laptop, wondering how can I make me eyes tired and eventually SLEEP. Since the sky is getting brighter, I seriously doubt I would undergo sleep time :( Fuck.


These past few days friends constantly ask my job hunting progression. It's not that I don't want to work but seriously, give me a break! Being leisure for few weeks won't harm anybody right? And for some reason, instead of getting nervous while waiting my results to come out, I'm more concern on still could not find for a job. I just hope everything would be fine for me. Cross-fingers.


Sometimes I just hope that I could write anything without any concern from others. I feel sick of pleasing other party. Have you ever feel something like that too? I mean, you wish you could just write anything without any constraint? Spoken words could still deceiving people but not in writing forms. For me, writing is much more powerful than words spoken which, it conveys the writer feelings into writing forms. Unlike verbal, no matter how good you tried to hide the feelings, you just can't do it. I could feel the various feelings (depending on how it wrote) right into me heart by just reading/writing conversation instead of verbal ones. And it haunts me for several days up to forever. The non verbal conversation carries more truthful fact and depends on the situation, it could be bitter, it could be sweet.


Ok, it's a bit out of topic but what I writing now is what I can think of. Forget about the grammatical mistakes. I'm medical student and I really don't care much about grammar mistakes. I could write a perfect English writing 10 years ago but if you ask me now, it is totally useless.


Before I forget, these past days, I constantly watch the 'A Haunting' series and so far I have watched up until season 3 episode 8. The documentary/series is actually based on true stories about their houses being haunted by demons/devil spirits. I would say, if you have watch Paranormal, this is actually not stand out much as Paranormal. Except exorcism for people that has been possessed by the devil spirits.


I have hunch that my glorious path way of Anime/Manga/Manhwa would end within few years more. I might still watch/read it but the story itself might be only focus of adult (josei). mature thingy. and I would spend less time with my babies (Anime.Manga/Manhwa). I've been with them for so long.


I have plan that is to visit South Korea next year with Linda. I found out today her friend wanted to go there as well next year. Without her knowing the friend's of hers plan, she mentioned my name on fb and got me read the whole conversations (just for the sake so that I know that too). Hmm..... I'm not that offended of what that stranger has said but it just not right. It could be that she purposely did that or not, I don't know. She said to Linda (before Linda tagged me into their conversations, mind you, I did not know that stranger): Invite those Chinese looking people only.


Great, I'm not fucking Chinese. I'm mixed blood (Indigenous+ Indian+ Chinese). SO I don't have a fucking Chinese look on my face at all. And to this trip, there's no way I'm gonna fucking ride with tons of people. I don't wish to mingle and travel with strangers. 2-3 person is decent but more than that... I won't fucking waste my money and time and sacrifice my happiness for the  sake of pleasing others.


Travel with small group is a lot more convenient and I can move freely without any restrictions. Mind you it's fucking female groups. I am female and I know how female could act. Especially those never travel before. My aim? Foods and cultures. If I really have to do some shopping, I might only shop electronic.


I'm not mad or whatever, it's just that I prefer going travel with same age as me or older companions. I just not so keen on travel with younger person. I just not prefer to. I feel frustrated about this point, especially Linda's sis wanted to join too. It's not fun and I prefer travel with friends that I really know. The feelings of travelling with friends ONLY is totally different than travel with friends AND sibling/s join the club. It's just very awkward.


Fuck. It's quarter to 5am and me eyes still wide open.
Wish me luck on try to sooth myself to sleep. x

Memory Lane

I have no idea why am I picked Memory Lane as the title for this post.

Anyways, I plan to revive back my manga/anime blog ( which the email&passwords I have completely forgot).
This blog would mainly focus on how I feel about the certain manga/anime. Manhwas would be apart of this blog as well.

The new blog that I would create is purely dedicate for the love of my life anime/manga. I live with them. :p

Right that's it for now :)

LadyLithium,
xx

Wonderful Encounters

TODAY...

YESTERDAY (2/6/2012) EVENTS WERE THE MOST INTERESTING AND EXCITING EVENTS EVER HAPPENED.

These were the events that happened since morning:

1. Esta called me and she willing to joined me at choir for wedding ceremony today at afternoon.

2. Saw how the couple wed in the church for first time ever (the difference was really obvious compare to what I have saw in the past between two different countries)

3. It turned out my neighbour party consist of friends that I know! And yeah, I met new faces and Mike invited me to his party! 

4. My idiotic friends were there too and yes, they forced me to join the party.

5. Attended the real British party. I would not say it's bad but it's just not a cup of my tea.

6. Reunited with friends that I barely know and strengthen up our friendship further. 

7. Had a nice chit chats with strangers.

8. Went our to Red Chilis with bunch of guys at 1230am. 

9. Saw bitches.

10. Saw this stupid couple doing inappropriate behaviours in front of the counter. Whew... My sit (along with Jason besides me) was the best position ever. It was like a live show in front of television I would say. 

11. That stupid night was meant for celebrating The Queen's Jubilee week but they made it into...... 

12. Saw this guy cross-dressing (I freaking thought at first he was she). He came inside the restaurant picking with green theme. Green Dress with black top. manly hair style with green painted nails (his toes too!) and wore black yet transparent panty horse. He had tattoo on his lower back right leg. 

13. Few guys from Romania saw him (the cross-dresser guy) right after they went out from the restaurant and they made fun of him but he would not care and even fought them back (just from the wall, there was no real fighting happened eventually)

14. Tan, Michael and Zaib (Woofy) sent me back home at 0200 just now.

15. I forgot to mentioned. The wedding today... They had this awesome car! I'm impress but in the same time I'm not keen on this actually. But for Esta's sake I took the car's picture. She mentioned something like the car's freaking expensive and in the same time it's classic type of car. 

Yes, this one. I don't even remember the name of this type of car.

16. I just thank God for everything that I have had encounter yesterday! 

Stupidity

I'M OUTSIDE WITH (my)FRIEND

which part of the sentence that you don't understand?

My endurance of this monkey person really hit off yesterday as I was with Anderson and suddenly I received a phone call from this monkey. I was reluctant at first, but considering she might needed some help or enquiries regards anything so I picked the phone up. 

That monkey asked me where am I at that moment. I was hesitate but then I told her I am outside (my house) with friend (Anderson). I said that clearly, clear enough even Anderson understood it. But this monkey really 'smart'. She said her main point making this phone call. 

I WANT YOU TO TAKE MY PICTURE. 

That's what she said. I was stunned and I have slurred speech on the spot. My mind went blank for a while and the next thing I realized I'm pissed off. Her stupidity really killed my mood at that moment. I told her again: I'm outside with friend but if you really want (me) to take picture, I can help you but only at evening onward around 5pm. 

her replied was this: NO NO, I CANT WAIT THAT LONGER, I HAVE TO RETURN XXXX TO FRIEND LATER ON AT 1430 BUT BEFORE THAT I WANT YOU TO TAKE MY PICTURE. 

I think Anderson sensed my anger. It was 1400 that time and she expect me to leave Anderson and run to her? WHAT THE FUCK?! With very low voice with very slow speed of speech,  I said to her: xxxxx, I. AM. OUTSIDE. WITH.FRIEND.

She might sensed her stupidity probably and then without any further delayed, she bid her good bye and hung up. 

The first word that came out from Anderson mouth was this: Why do you always attracting weird person?

Great. Whatever. 

Moral of the story: don't be stupid and read the situation. Otherwise, who knows your stupidity might caused you lose a friend or gain an enemy.

Typical Typical Typical

I was browsing facebook yesterday and I came across this entertainment site called 'Melayu Boleh' or something similar as that. That site, well... It was meant to be fun, I guest. But what disappointed me most is how negative the Malays can criticize or condemn others only based on how the people/things appeared to be looked like. 

Personally I must say, unlike Muslims all over the world, the Muslims at Malaysia is really act mighty and stuffs. Not the Religion wise I mean, but the people. They self- claimed that the are Malay because they are Muslims and whoever is Muslim therefore they automatically put them as Malay. I don't hate Muslims. I am from mix family so therefore half of my family is Muslims but they NEVER claimed that they are Malays. 

What hurt most is, for example, when a picture of half naked/woman wore less clothes displayed on the site, the society would blame on the woman, saying 'ohh... in bible said blaaaa blaaaa blaaaaa' or 'Asxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx, Sxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx (exclamation words that I can't say it due to all respect for them) or that woman is a whore or she's ugly or whatever they could think of.

Yes, pictures are meant to be either criticize in negative or positive, depending on how and who look at it. My point is: Whatever they critic, they must put some 'word of wisdom' from Bible. I mean come on, if you want to  critic the picture, critic it properly, don't use Bible as reference of everything. Talk like a normal people usually do. I don't like it when every single actions on whoever does, which is/might be wrong in their eyes, they just use Bible to against it.

They never realize one thing: nobody is perfect. They themselves do have sins as well. They critics people/ things but only God knows what they true selves are.

Typical. 

Self Concious

Title says it all

While I was busy browsing pictures of me taken by Ernest when I was staying over at Cardiff, I could not stop smiling and in the same time, think back of how and when did these pictures took place. Few of the pictures (of me) he snapped without me even realizing it. and yeah, I'm impressed! LOL

I did not expect this!

I like to take pictures but since I'm not confident enough of my self appearance (I gained a lot these past years) so naturally I began to not kind of display my picture often as many people would. My calves muscle (to be specific:  Gastrocnemius Muscles) are big, it's really unladylike calf and I don't have wide hips. I've seen the body descriptions about women body but to be honest, I don't even fit any of  the description. I would say my body is like a PEAR shape BUT inverted ways. I have a pair of nice, normal lower body part but not my upper part body. 

They are two parts that I like about my body: my face and my boobs. 

My butt?? FLAT. I'm not proud of that at all. Boobs stand out a lot (friends say that) but since it's stands out, I tried to hinder it by wearing scarf, wear proper blouse/shirt and avoid singlet. Place from where I come from is more of conservative place so the more clothes you wear the better it is. 


Another huge reason for try to cover boobs is because I hate people stare at my boobs. I just hate it. 

How about you guys? Please do share me your story if you have some. 

Awareness

I noticed that I......

1.      Have become addicted to pokemon games! Owing one of the game boy console is like hitting jackpot when it came with offer of 3 games of it! Since my game boy is Game Boy Advace SP (GBA SP), so I can play the first generation of the pokemon games. I know, some of you might give me a POKER FACE but I don't mind at all. In fact, owing this decent game is one of my wish list in life. Sounds lame huh? I prefer this over DS because I freaking not like 3D game as it hurts me eyes and I feel dizzy. 

So far I only have Yellow, Red, Blue and Crystal version, Emerald is on its way though. At first I wanted to buy the whole set of the pokemon game but then I was thinking, if all the games are having similar plot, what's the point of buying it? I know each game has different sets of pokemon species but to be honest I'm not so keen of it so couldn't be bother about that much. I just want the plot that be different than others and thats the only thing that matters to me.  :)

My babies (for now)

2.      Have become likely to read Josei genre of manga instead of famous Romance, Shounen, School type of genres. And has become more slightly to read lesser manga/manhwa as I usually do. My first anime was 'My Neighbor Totoro' (Tonari no Totoro). I watched that when I was about 8/9 years old. I started to read manga (I didn't know the existence of manhwa that time yet) when I was about 13. Phew. It's been more than a decade. Should I get retire by now? hmm..... I don't think I can. It's been a part of my life. :)

my very first anime :P

3.       Get myself to be a kid again. I bought over Eeyo key chain for £5 from DISNEY shop, the 'Magic Towel' AND a Tee from The Muppets. I have bought soft toys from the shop last year as well. A Nemo and an Eeyo

Nemo and Ted (Eeyo)

My Eeyo key chain and the Magic Towel

Last but not least........

Right, until then! I promise I would get better story to tell you guys later! x

Mentally Unstable

Right, I said I would post much more interesting stories once I finished exam. Here's the tricky and most annoying part: I still have TWO ASSignments to do before I am free like a bird.

I have many interesting stories to tell but since I have poor memory, I actually forgotten what are the stories that I'm dying to share with you lot! ggeerrrrhhhhh... I'm frustrated! :( but I promise I will share with you guys once I remember it!

I have several health problems, I'm in general healthy person. I have no medical history nor any allergic of medications. Lets just say I have the problems which only traditional medicines (Chinese acupuncture) can relieve my pain away.

I am aware that I have this problem since the early age of teenager, around 16-ish. I have back pain and lower back as well. I dont know how to describe it in English as I only know the term in my language. I admit I have this 'masuk angin' problem since the teenager but never eventually thought that my problems lead to seriousness which cause even the Traditional Chinese Medicine practioner (DR. Li) sighed heavily.

At first I just want a simple cupping for pain relieve but I never thought that at the end of it, I have to undergo acupuncture. So I went for my appointment today at 1500 hour. I asked for the package of cupping and massage (medical massage) as in package with the acupuncture as well. I nearly scream for the message session as my lower back hurts alot. The massage was more of deep tissue massage to be honest and though it was nice but in the same time it was pain.

Another customer has arrived when my session was nearly done. As I rise up, I felt dizzy. Although the dizziness still there, I took my remaining energy to put my clothes on me again. While Dr Li was talking about the fee, I still felt dizzy. Luckily when I was on my way back home the dizziness started to fade  away.


The after effect might only takes place tonight as I still feel slightly pain and dizzy. Gosh. Cross fingers I will be fine by just go there once!

RETARD

So as I have mentioned before that I bought netbook, this is what happened to that netbook.

I may or may not have tell you guys before which brand of netbook I bought, right? Basically the one that I bought was HP, the latest version of netbook they have, or so they claimed. I like the design of the netbook, with the lid can be flip 180 degree. Not to forget the sound quality (I have forgotten what was the name of the sound quality now). Was it Best audio?? (something) audio. Whatever.

Problems raised as I started to use that netbook. The most significant problem was the space bar itself. It functioned perfectly well in the middle of the space bar but not functioning at all at the end of left and right corner of the space bar. That was the first problem. The second one comes the day after I got this netbook. Pixel problem occurred. I have had this problem with my laptop. The third one was although this netbook was new but it seemed to be lagging a lot. I mean A LOT. It act unlike new ones. I could not stand the problem anymore therefore I decided to went back to shop and 3 days after I get the netbook.

I got the new HP netbook as the compensate for the old one. My happy moment only lasted for hours. Problem raised again. This time its worse than the first one. Space bar problem happened (same as the ole one) but the lagging seemed to be lesser compared to the old one. New problem happened. This stupid netbook seemed to developed this double vision and blinks frequently as if its run out of battery. To make it worse, the lagging became worsen and eventually I have to wait for about 20 seconds before it even started (regardless whatever program I opened, especially internet browsers)

For the next four days, I went to the shop again. This time they offered me other brand of netbook as they run out of the HP netbook. From the past experiences of netbook (the first two netbooks) I checked the space bar and so on. So at the end of it I picked Samsung netbook. Overall, I like this new one as when I opened and follow the instructions given, at the end of it, it does give me authority to chose the capacity of hard drive C and hard drive D which HP netbook/laptop never does. I'm impressed with it. 

As I'm writing to you guys now I'm using Samsung netbook. The price itself is affordable and I'm happy with it. :)

I'm still in the middle of exam mode. As I'm waiting my friend, Sarah, to finish her oral defense, I take this chance to update my news :) My oral defense? ..........Cross finger I get good marks on that.
Will write more  and interesting stories once I finish my exams. Until then, stay well guys!

Tiredness

Exams is the most famous hot topic for us now as we are currently on  exam mode starting this  week until  18/5/2012. Therefore I'm sorry for any delaying on new posts.

As my brain can't function properly at this moment (studying purpose ONLY) so I decided to write up some new things that happened  surrounding me.  I actually  learnt new things while I  attended my 3hours placement at  Middlesborough hospital. The best part of that was I get to get an email address from one of the pharmacists  there. Adam gave me his  email address! <3

Right, in conclusion my  placement went  very smooth despite  the crazy weather that  we  had that day.#

The next thing  I would like to share is about my  exam structure that  we are currently having this  week. Basically,  we  called this  system as OSCE. Don't ask me what is it  full  name as I  never know it as well! But what can I tell  you  is that this OSCE  system consist of  6 stations which the stations are: taking  blood pressure, taking respiratory  medical history, cardiovascular  medical history, gastrointestinal tract (abdominal) medical history, medication history and  refer/treat symptoms. It does sound easy  but  actually it IS hard! I have to repeat  again today as I didnt get through  the first time session. Time given for each station was 6  minutes, regardless you get all the information that you  need or not. #

I bought notebook yesterday too. And it seemed lagging  at the moment and  if this continually lagging,  I have  to bring it  back  to them and  repair it. I hope I dont get  this problem. and I  hate its SPACEBAR  as well! Gosh...! I hope its just my hallucination of my notebook is actually getting problems! :(

I might actually  really tired  yesterday so when I purchased this notebook, the salesman was asking about my postcode. Instead of postcode, I heard him said: sort code. Since I was holding my card and plus I didn't have any energy to talk anymore, with full of confident, I handed him my card. He looked at me with unbelievable face. I realized then  something was not right.and  yeah, I was right. He  actually was asking my  postcode, not sort code! My friend was there with me, so she saw the  whole incident and couldn't stop laughing at me!The salesman was laughing at me too!

The  first round exam has passed. I'm focusing on the second  round exam  now. The next exam would be by next week,  10/5/2012. Wish me luck! I really want to say many things but I've reaching my limits for today. Will update later! xx

p/s: I just found it  today and I like it! 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QOCYogVeCts

Korean Variety Shows

I am huge fan of Japanese stuffs but not Korean's. I was not into Korean stuffs (dramas, manhwa, variety shows, k-pops etc) not until last year. 

 I still remembered how my housemates reacted towards Korean Dramas back when we were still Diploma students. There was once our house had this Korean Fever for weeks and if I'm not mistaken it was during our holiday break. Well to be precise it was not only that time though, it happened throughout our 3 years study. As I am a hardcore manga/anime, I couldnt care less whatever they were doing. But their faces and their passions towards these Korean stuffs really leave me huge impression. I never gonna admit this right in their faces though :)

K-pop... They were 2 person that were really love it. Oh, I should say, it was not only limited to K-pop though but Korean Drama as well and...... right, the juicy gossips not to forget! Once these two started to mentioned about XY was with YZ bla.. bla.., all I know they were started to talk foreign language (literally)!! :p

I love my housemates. Although some of them might not even worth my care but still we have had stayed together for 3 years, how could I forget them or even hate them easily? :)

Back to Korean things, I should give a nickname to make my life easy. hmmmm... right, from now on, these Korean things I would called it as KS, that is stands for Korean Stuffs.

I started to have a serious look at KS because.......I just fell in love with it suddenly?? :p  Well to be honest with you guys, I have no idea why and what makes me look at KS. In fact, I only realized this early this year! But to be exact, I am more into this Korean Variety shows such as Hello Baby, We Got Married, Strong Heart. I watched these because the actors/actress/boy bands/girl bands that I like happened to be in the show and because of them I decided to watch the whole show from the beginning. 

The Hello Baby show is mainly about one boy/girl band would be assign to take care of a single baby/toddler for 3 months and their daily routines with the assigned baby/todler would be shown in tv including how would they overcome obstacles/difficulties while handling the assgned baby/todler (with none of them even has the experience of taking care a kid) would be shown in the air as well. Personally I like this kind of because it taught me some valuable lessons on how to take care one baby/todler properly. Hello Baby season 5 was the best so far for me because the show (s5) showed 3 different multiculture babies that has to be taken care by this boy band (MBLAQ). Click the link provided here to watch the season 5 Hello Baby

http://www.dramacrazy.net/korean-variety/hello-baby-mblaq/

We Got Married is people from enterntaiment industry would be paired randomnly with another person from entertainment industry as well. Through here, they would act as if they were 'real couple' that just got married. To see the akwardness/embarassment/funny/sad moments among the coules really thrilled me off! The show itself is not only meant for 1 couple but it goes for several couples which all of them are from entertainment industy. The first season of the show was the best for me personally speaking. Click the link proveided to watch this show:

http://www.dramacrazy.net/korean-variety/we-got-married-season-1/

As for the Strong Heart, it is kind of boring but in the same time it reveals celebrity's true story ( they never reveal it to everybody). If you are huge fan of Korean artists (entertainment wise), this is the pleasure show that you must not miss!

well then, see you guys later! xx

Easter Break

As the title said, I am currently on my holidays break. 

This reminds me when I had my first single adventure to Singapore. Was it 2008/09?? hmmm... I couldnt remember the year I went there. Oh well, whatever. :p

Family and friends always asking me the same old question that I heard since I was a teenager: Don't you feel afraid when travel alone? my reply to them is still the same until now: NO

I don't know you guys but in my case I would use this rational reasons:

1. I am excited to see and explore outside the box, so why do I have to be afraid of?

 

2. If you are REALLY excited, do you even need someone when youre travelling?

 

3. Travelling is fun with the lots of people in a group. BUT that would slow your speed as well. I can go anywhere and everywhere I want without being restricted. 

 

4. I learnt a lot if I am off to travel alone

 

5. I can be more independant and can be much stronger (mentally and physically)

 

My first journey experience... I was there for a week. I leanrt their lifestyles, their foods, their people and I learnt the foreigner behaviours as well. Singapore is a small counrty with lots of buildings surrounding. I could say during my visit there, Singapore's safety is excellent. I'm not afraid walking at night when I was there. It was totally new world for me, it was an amazing experience. 

That was when I discovered my another trait: I remembered the streets/sturctures of the things I passed by after the first time I looked at it. The first time I used the MRT, I was excited. Although I knew nothing, I just randomnly get into that and looked at my map and decided where would I go. Upon returning, I walked off to my hotel instead. I observed the streets that I went before and link it with the current street I am now to get the idea how to off back to the hotel. It was really pleasure to be able to reached my hotel back :)

The foreigner that I was saying before, is actually not a real foreigner tourist. It is actually more like foreign workers and I HATE them. Bangladesh workers. I will tell you why I hate this particular race. Family friend of us is Singaporean and he told us how peaceful Singapore was before the arrival of these people. He said some streets were no longer that safe (it is still safe but not as safe as it was in the past). He mentioned that ways before I went to Singapore. This was what happened: It was sunny that time and I wore singlet with jeans together with my backpack went to have a walk at Bugis Street. Upon my returning back from there, there was this Bangla pervert greeted me. I noticed he was not actually looking at me but he was looking at my breasts. Fuck the bastard. While greeting me (with the eyes glared at my breasts) he said: can we be friends? I was so pissed off but since we were in the middle of the streets and many people around that time I was not that worried. Instead I said to that fucking bastard: NO. He was really persistent and kept on followed me. I left him while he was busy talking to me (mind you, it was full of people that time). He was in front of me and while we were walking I stopped while he was still moving and I turned my way to other way round. Fucking Bastard. 

This is the pattern of the singlet I wore:

Tell me, will this aggitate a guy? damn him. fucking bastard. by the way, my singlet colour was dark green

That was the only bad experience I had when I was there. So if you want to travel to anywhere, go to open/public place where people are all around. If you happen to get similar experience like me and if you are in panic state, just scream. People surrounding you will be alert and help you. Since I can handle pretty much that kind of people, so I was not screaming. But if he was being more persistent any further, I would not hesitate to scream. 

 

Overall I LOVE Singapore and I would definitely visit that country again! 

 

I went to Sentosa via MRT and again hoop off via bus to reach the Sentosa. I am not beach loving type of person and plus I dont know whats the value of spending time at the beach. Still without knowing what Sentosa mainly was, I just went there. Unfortunately for me that time it was cloudy and not long afterwards it was raining heavily. I was a bit dissapointed but what I could see during my tour at Sentosa was that it has many beaches with lots of hunks around. There was this performance that I wanted to watch (I think that was the only reason why I went there in the first place). It was 'The Mermaid' performance I guess but since I was too tired, I couldnt wait for that and hence I returned to my hotel early. 

 

You guys might have wondered why I didnt do any checkups about Singapore or places that you should visit. I am truly not into checking things since I love surprises. I love the feelings of excitement and surprises. Too much expectant would leads to huge dissapointment if its not what you expected it to be.  And to be honest, this trip was fully sponsored by mum. hehehe 

 

Mum is unpredictable type of person. When she said yes into something it was really a sudden decision. For example when we were really tired back home, she said: Lets go to picnic. me and brother asked: when? and she said: NOW. The atmosphere that time was really quiet. Same thing goes to this trip. I told her I was bored because we had freaking 2 weeks break, she just said this to me: Why dont you just go to Singapore instead for 2 weeks? I was astonished. and she said to me: Go there by tomorrow or the day after tomorrow. Originally it was supposedly to be 2 weeks holidays but I thought 1 week should be fine so thats when everything started.

By the way....... I know how to take trains but not buses! I really dont like bus ><