Life's Changing

........ I don't know exactly how I can describe my feelings that I feel now. It's not lonely but it's longing on something which I myself cannot identify it. Could this caused by me listening to a choir's singing performances? I like choir and to hear them sing a song with different cords using different voices make me awe. It's like Gregorian style. Simple yet meaningful and beautiful.


So I decided to change my course. I don't know yet what kind of course that I would like to study. It took me freaking 5 years to realised that I don't belong to Science related field. I've wasted my5 precious years, chasing something that I actually don't like to do.

Anderson asked me today: tell me what you actually want to do.

My answer: I don't know. 

I must say that he finally accepted my leave. If he could he would eat me alive last week when I told him that I would not continue my pharmacy. But this week seemed different, and he talked to me with calm manner and I can feel as if today's conversation would be the last time we talk and facing each other for longer time. He said many things that I could not even believe it myself. I knew new things a lot from him, and this phrase stuck in my mind: it's sucks but you'll love it. 

 Time goes really fast. I have to deal with the Uni as I am currently waiting for my results to come out. Whatever happened in the future, I hope I can find things that I really love to do and I will get one and the most suitable course for me to study.