Self Concious

Title says it all

While I was busy browsing pictures of me taken by Ernest when I was staying over at Cardiff, I could not stop smiling and in the same time, think back of how and when did these pictures took place. Few of the pictures (of me) he snapped without me even realizing it. and yeah, I'm impressed! LOL

I did not expect this!

I like to take pictures but since I'm not confident enough of my self appearance (I gained a lot these past years) so naturally I began to not kind of display my picture often as many people would. My calves muscle (to be specific:  Gastrocnemius Muscles) are big, it's really unladylike calf and I don't have wide hips. I've seen the body descriptions about women body but to be honest, I don't even fit any of  the description. I would say my body is like a PEAR shape BUT inverted ways. I have a pair of nice, normal lower body part but not my upper part body. 

They are two parts that I like about my body: my face and my boobs. 

My butt?? FLAT. I'm not proud of that at all. Boobs stand out a lot (friends say that) but since it's stands out, I tried to hinder it by wearing scarf, wear proper blouse/shirt and avoid singlet. Place from where I come from is more of conservative place so the more clothes you wear the better it is. 


Another huge reason for try to cover boobs is because I hate people stare at my boobs. I just hate it. 

How about you guys? Please do share me your story if you have some. 

Awareness

I noticed that I......

1.      Have become addicted to pokemon games! Owing one of the game boy console is like hitting jackpot when it came with offer of 3 games of it! Since my game boy is Game Boy Advace SP (GBA SP), so I can play the first generation of the pokemon games. I know, some of you might give me a POKER FACE but I don't mind at all. In fact, owing this decent game is one of my wish list in life. Sounds lame huh? I prefer this over DS because I freaking not like 3D game as it hurts me eyes and I feel dizzy. 

So far I only have Yellow, Red, Blue and Crystal version, Emerald is on its way though. At first I wanted to buy the whole set of the pokemon game but then I was thinking, if all the games are having similar plot, what's the point of buying it? I know each game has different sets of pokemon species but to be honest I'm not so keen of it so couldn't be bother about that much. I just want the plot that be different than others and thats the only thing that matters to me.  :)

My babies (for now)

2.      Have become likely to read Josei genre of manga instead of famous Romance, Shounen, School type of genres. And has become more slightly to read lesser manga/manhwa as I usually do. My first anime was 'My Neighbor Totoro' (Tonari no Totoro). I watched that when I was about 8/9 years old. I started to read manga (I didn't know the existence of manhwa that time yet) when I was about 13. Phew. It's been more than a decade. Should I get retire by now? hmm..... I don't think I can. It's been a part of my life. :)

my very first anime :P

3.       Get myself to be a kid again. I bought over Eeyo key chain for £5 from DISNEY shop, the 'Magic Towel' AND a Tee from The Muppets. I have bought soft toys from the shop last year as well. A Nemo and an Eeyo

Nemo and Ted (Eeyo)

My Eeyo key chain and the Magic Towel

Last but not least........

Right, until then! I promise I would get better story to tell you guys later! x

Mentally Unstable

Right, I said I would post much more interesting stories once I finished exam. Here's the tricky and most annoying part: I still have TWO ASSignments to do before I am free like a bird.

I have many interesting stories to tell but since I have poor memory, I actually forgotten what are the stories that I'm dying to share with you lot! ggeerrrrhhhhh... I'm frustrated! :( but I promise I will share with you guys once I remember it!

I have several health problems, I'm in general healthy person. I have no medical history nor any allergic of medications. Lets just say I have the problems which only traditional medicines (Chinese acupuncture) can relieve my pain away.

I am aware that I have this problem since the early age of teenager, around 16-ish. I have back pain and lower back as well. I dont know how to describe it in English as I only know the term in my language. I admit I have this 'masuk angin' problem since the teenager but never eventually thought that my problems lead to seriousness which cause even the Traditional Chinese Medicine practioner (DR. Li) sighed heavily.

At first I just want a simple cupping for pain relieve but I never thought that at the end of it, I have to undergo acupuncture. So I went for my appointment today at 1500 hour. I asked for the package of cupping and massage (medical massage) as in package with the acupuncture as well. I nearly scream for the message session as my lower back hurts alot. The massage was more of deep tissue massage to be honest and though it was nice but in the same time it was pain.

Another customer has arrived when my session was nearly done. As I rise up, I felt dizzy. Although the dizziness still there, I took my remaining energy to put my clothes on me again. While Dr Li was talking about the fee, I still felt dizzy. Luckily when I was on my way back home the dizziness started to fade  away.


The after effect might only takes place tonight as I still feel slightly pain and dizzy. Gosh. Cross fingers I will be fine by just go there once!