Self Concious

Title says it all

While I was busy browsing pictures of me taken by Ernest when I was staying over at Cardiff, I could not stop smiling and in the same time, think back of how and when did these pictures took place. Few of the pictures (of me) he snapped without me even realizing it. and yeah, I'm impressed! LOL

I did not expect this!

I like to take pictures but since I'm not confident enough of my self appearance (I gained a lot these past years) so naturally I began to not kind of display my picture often as many people would. My calves muscle (to be specific:  Gastrocnemius Muscles) are big, it's really unladylike calf and I don't have wide hips. I've seen the body descriptions about women body but to be honest, I don't even fit any of  the description. I would say my body is like a PEAR shape BUT inverted ways. I have a pair of nice, normal lower body part but not my upper part body. 

They are two parts that I like about my body: my face and my boobs. 

My butt?? FLAT. I'm not proud of that at all. Boobs stand out a lot (friends say that) but since it's stands out, I tried to hinder it by wearing scarf, wear proper blouse/shirt and avoid singlet. Place from where I come from is more of conservative place so the more clothes you wear the better it is. 


Another huge reason for try to cover boobs is because I hate people stare at my boobs. I just hate it. 

How about you guys? Please do share me your story if you have some.