Pharmacy Field

I am a pharmacy student.

One skeptical that often being mislead about pharmacy is that: we ONLY sell medications. Sad but it's a true story. That's how people seeing this field.

Unlike any other country, Malaysian people tends to not appreciate this job. Which they always have this stupid mind set saying doctor's job is much better and it's much worth. While the rest of the medical fields are not worthy at all. Which is extremely hurtful and hateful things to hear.

As I am (still) talking to my long lost ex classmate when we were in secondary school, each minutes gone worse. He still compares physician field with pharmacy field. And my blood is boiling. So to ensure that I don't appear as monster to him, I purposely and slowly changing the subject. Don't get me wrong, I did explain to him in nicest way I could that how, in a very simple yet short way of backing up pharmacy and other medical fields, we as a medical field person collaborates toward one another to make things smooth and eventually effective.

Apart from medical field people, I think almost 70% of citizens would not appreciate our efforts. I used to have had this acquaintance (long story) and he was a first year medical student in Kursk. I have no idea how could he be so stupid and arrogant and praised worship his field. This bastard in conclusion, act so almighty and it was obvious that he looked down at me because I am in pharmacy field.

Seeing how arrogant that bastard could be, it's totally waste to explain to him ways of how our field could work. I tried but this is all he said: apart from dispensing medications, what could you guys actually do? I mean I understand you have to work with patients but how?

I explained to him in the simplest form, state that apart from dispensing, we actually do extemporaneous preparations ( mind this, our hospital is in rural area and we are not fully develop country so we have to make our own medications), advise doctors on medications, check if there's drug-drug interactions, etc.. I'm talking about hospital wise, not others. Besides, my field is not only limited to hospital but also to others such as pharmaceuticals industrial, clinical research, teaching field blaa blaa you named it.

The arrogant and bliss coming from ungrateful human makes me sick. Physicians could not work well without the rest of medical team, so does pharmacy, nurse, mrt, etc! So therefore, don't judge my field of choice because without my field, you guys won't even have medicines to begin with!

Taken from Google image OBVIOUSLY

Another Sleepless Night

Sigh.....

It's freaking 0359am and here I am, stare stupidly in front of laptop, wondering how can I make me eyes tired and eventually SLEEP. Since the sky is getting brighter, I seriously doubt I would undergo sleep time :( Fuck.


These past few days friends constantly ask my job hunting progression. It's not that I don't want to work but seriously, give me a break! Being leisure for few weeks won't harm anybody right? And for some reason, instead of getting nervous while waiting my results to come out, I'm more concern on still could not find for a job. I just hope everything would be fine for me. Cross-fingers.


Sometimes I just hope that I could write anything without any concern from others. I feel sick of pleasing other party. Have you ever feel something like that too? I mean, you wish you could just write anything without any constraint? Spoken words could still deceiving people but not in writing forms. For me, writing is much more powerful than words spoken which, it conveys the writer feelings into writing forms. Unlike verbal, no matter how good you tried to hide the feelings, you just can't do it. I could feel the various feelings (depending on how it wrote) right into me heart by just reading/writing conversation instead of verbal ones. And it haunts me for several days up to forever. The non verbal conversation carries more truthful fact and depends on the situation, it could be bitter, it could be sweet.


Ok, it's a bit out of topic but what I writing now is what I can think of. Forget about the grammatical mistakes. I'm medical student and I really don't care much about grammar mistakes. I could write a perfect English writing 10 years ago but if you ask me now, it is totally useless.


Before I forget, these past days, I constantly watch the 'A Haunting' series and so far I have watched up until season 3 episode 8. The documentary/series is actually based on true stories about their houses being haunted by demons/devil spirits. I would say, if you have watch Paranormal, this is actually not stand out much as Paranormal. Except exorcism for people that has been possessed by the devil spirits.


I have hunch that my glorious path way of Anime/Manga/Manhwa would end within few years more. I might still watch/read it but the story itself might be only focus of adult (josei). mature thingy. and I would spend less time with my babies (Anime.Manga/Manhwa). I've been with them for so long.


I have plan that is to visit South Korea next year with Linda. I found out today her friend wanted to go there as well next year. Without her knowing the friend's of hers plan, she mentioned my name on fb and got me read the whole conversations (just for the sake so that I know that too). Hmm..... I'm not that offended of what that stranger has said but it just not right. It could be that she purposely did that or not, I don't know. She said to Linda (before Linda tagged me into their conversations, mind you, I did not know that stranger): Invite those Chinese looking people only.


Great, I'm not fucking Chinese. I'm mixed blood (Indigenous+ Indian+ Chinese). SO I don't have a fucking Chinese look on my face at all. And to this trip, there's no way I'm gonna fucking ride with tons of people. I don't wish to mingle and travel with strangers. 2-3 person is decent but more than that... I won't fucking waste my money and time and sacrifice my happiness for the  sake of pleasing others.


Travel with small group is a lot more convenient and I can move freely without any restrictions. Mind you it's fucking female groups. I am female and I know how female could act. Especially those never travel before. My aim? Foods and cultures. If I really have to do some shopping, I might only shop electronic.


I'm not mad or whatever, it's just that I prefer going travel with same age as me or older companions. I just not so keen on travel with younger person. I just not prefer to. I feel frustrated about this point, especially Linda's sis wanted to join too. It's not fun and I prefer travel with friends that I really know. The feelings of travelling with friends ONLY is totally different than travel with friends AND sibling/s join the club. It's just very awkward.


Fuck. It's quarter to 5am and me eyes still wide open.
Wish me luck on try to sooth myself to sleep. x

Memory Lane

I have no idea why am I picked Memory Lane as the title for this post.

Anyways, I plan to revive back my manga/anime blog ( which the email&passwords I have completely forgot).
This blog would mainly focus on how I feel about the certain manga/anime. Manhwas would be apart of this blog as well.

The new blog that I would create is purely dedicate for the love of my life anime/manga. I live with them. :p

Right that's it for now :)

LadyLithium,
xx